how it feels..

wondering something can be real,wondering every dreams come true..
every memories reminds me of something untouchable..
every regrets comes with this tears,this tears just explained how hurt it is..
every old message tell me how it worked,at the time..
and every smile you've gave to me just made it's own gallery..
every words you've said just made ir's own books..
and every single time we used to spend is the most wonderful time i've ever thought..
to congratulate you,is the only way to keep in touch with you..
to see your face,is so hard,to make you laugh is really hard.
when the only way to be with you is just to be your bestfriend,or just be your classmate.
to see people replacing you.
to cheer up with someone who you don't really love.
and see someone who you truly love with someone else with his big smile you used to make for him.
and when your love cheer you up,as your bestfriend,only your bestfriend
and chat you just because to ask bout his crush.
and you regret every single words you have said to him.
and when you're trying to be different to him,all you accept is just an ignorant.
how it feels?
to cheer up with someone who used to be your life?whole life.
the one you always crying for,or the one who always make you jealous with little things.
how it feels?
when you're still waiting for him to come to your life again,not as your bestfriend,but as your last man.
and all you have is just 'friend' sign.
how it feels?
when all you can do is just loving someone who you don't really love to. but he is the only one people who make you laugh all day long.
how it feels?
when your friend zone lover have your replace? after you replace him?
how it feels?
i don't know,sometimes all i need ia just being single.
have no one to love,just someone who live far far away from you.
i always wondering how it feels
when you love someone who live far away from you.
and the only time you can see him is just when holiday.
and every boy want to be your boyfriend,and every girl want to be his girlfriend.
and all you and him can answer is,"i'm sorry,i have someone who live far away from me,who always waiting for me to come back."
sounds impossible huh? hahahahha